I HAVE NO SOUL
I AM A SOUL
I HAVE A BODY
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I would not describe myself as an author , neither as an artist, but only as somebody in a human body, who tries to express the feelings and movements of her heart. In that way this words or artworks gets the magic to trigger feelings in the heart of somebody else and the strengh to cause a movement inside of them.
My name is Andrea. My Name is as unimportant as where I
come from and what school education I have, since all these things actually say
nothing about me. My body was born 1989 in a small town called "Horn" in Austria into
a "perfect" square world. Even
as a small child I had the feeling that something was wrong and I always observed
my environment very intensively and tried to find the so-called "error in the
matrix", which proves to me that what we see and experience is only what was
said to us and planted in our heads. Like all of us, I was born as a sensitive soul
into a human body and my brain was crammed with unimportant information that limits
me, like everyone else, to be strong and luminous and to remember again why we are
here. I did not understand the signs, because walls were also built around my heart
to protect me from what I saw and experienced. The earth never felt like my home
and at the age of six it was the best thought for me to just fall asleep and never
wake up again, although I had a normal and beautiful childhood up to this age. When
I was 14 years old, I experienced the miracle I had been waiting for so long. After
this moment I could suddenly recognize the light again and after that consciously
perceive the signs. At the age of 15 I started writing poems and texts, 3 years
later, my first book. Only 10 years later I found the courage to bring it to the public,
as it contains many very personal memories and was initially intended only for myself.
When I was 21 Years old i left my country to travel around Mexico. I was on a journey to find something, actually I never knew what it was. After 7 years of journey I finally found it. I just left without nothing and therefore I could found everything.
"Depressions" "Burn out", "mental Illness" . . are all just words to keep us from looking for the truth. We are not sick when we realize that something is wrong and when we feel, that there must be more than this..
I want to remember you
to open your heart again
and that the miracle
that you have been waiting for so long
is yourself
to open your heart again
and that the miracle
that you have been waiting for so long
is yourself
WHAT I HAVE LEARNED IN MY LIFE?
I've learned to accept and love myself as a human, as I am. I have learned that humans have no weaknesses, and all what he named "weakness" is simple that what makes him so special and unique.
I've learned that there are no mistakes in life - and that, when you follow your heart, everything is good, as it is, althrough i can´t not see it in the moment. I've learned to trust and let go of all my fears, because I've learned that fears are only illusions. I've learned that what people call "errors" are experiences that will help us to grow. I've learned to be grateful for this experiences, I've learned to learn from them and grow with them.
I've learned not to hold on to anything. Letting go. Everything that arises in my way and preventing me to grow. I've learned that no one can "own" anything and that everything is free. Above all, the human. This way I learned to free myself from all shackles to solve
I've learned to love UNCONDITIONAL, me and everything else on this earth. I stopped to put expectations on myself and my environment, because I've learned that everything takes time and we all are in a different stage of development, I have learned to love also the people who I can not understand, I have learned that unconditional love bring so much good in myself and my surroundings.
I've learned that there is no death, that what human call "death" is "life" . I've learned that we were never separated from the spiritual plane, and that when we "die", our real life begins.
I've learned that time is not important. that we have only this moment. I've learned to let the past being past and let the future being future. I've learned to live HERE and NOW and enjoy every moment of my life. I've learned that ALWAYS is just NOW, and that's all we have, every day, because it is everytime just now.
I've learned that all I need, I have in myself. That I had everything for what I was looking so long all the time already in myself. I've learned that the joy and happiness that I feel within me no other human can influenced by the outside world, except of me. I've learned that my happiness depends on nobody except from myself
But ultimately, I learned that I already knew that everything all that time. That I have not learned it, but I've just remembered again.